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		<title>&#8220;Listening for Jesus&#8221;</title>
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		<description><![CDATA[Listening for Jesus was one of the prompts for this week, and I decided to take it in a rather odd direction. Granted, I decided to do this from 10pm-1am last night (remembering the deadline was midnight. Ah hem.), so the time might&#8217;ve had a little something to do with the decision. Still, I got [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Listening for Jesus was one of the prompts for this week, and I decided to take it in a rather odd direction. Granted, I decided to do this from 10pm-1am last night (remembering the deadline was midnight. Ah hem.), so the time might&#8217;ve had a little something to do with the decision. </p>
<p>Still, I got some good feedback from it, but nobody figured out what the central problem is. Have an idea? <img src='http://lifeinthelandofdreamydreams.com/wordpress/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_smile.gif' alt=':)' class='wp-smiley' /> </p>
<p>I actually like the premise; I think I&#8217;m going to stick with these characters for awhile in the writing group and see where it goes. </p>
<p>As always, any comments welcome.</p>
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<blockquote><p>All but three of the nineteen bedrooms held an untrusting, nervous occupant. It was Mitch?s turn to be out, and Cali sat out in the recently carved out common area, listening to the unhappy rustling behind the closed doors above her as she gathered her thoughts. Only one bedroom was left unaccounted for- the smallest bedroom at the far end of the hallway, now vacant since its occupant vanished two months ago. </p>
<p>Not vanished, Cali corrected herself. Adam wasn?t gone at all. Absorbed. Integrated. These were the terms she was supposed to be using now. Unified. That was the idea she was supposed to be hanging onto when the doubts crept in. All nineteen of them, together as one, that?s what Jesus said had to be; that?s where salvation lay. </p>
<p>But, still. Poor little Adam had been the first to go, the first sacrifice that Jesus said had to be made. Barely a toddler, his diaper was perpetually sodden, and was born a deaf-mute. He rarely ventured out beyond his miniature hobbit-esque door, and when he did, his eyes would be swollen and bloodshot as he silently bawled his endless angry tears. </p>
<p>The baby would occasionally wander through the other rooms, feeling his way along the wall and clutching onto whoever he found, desperate but inconsolable. As much as everyone tried to help, they always ended up feeling guilty, having failed him once again. Poor Adam. Poor baby. </p>
<p>She told herself that of course Jesus was right; it was kindest to release Adam from his pain. But there was that guilt again, because it wasn?t only the tot who?d been freed, was it? Everyone else in their system had benefited from Adam?s?integration. And that felt wrong. Evil, even. You didn?t kill people because it made your life easier, did you? </p>
<p>Cali paced the little room and heard a door in Mama?s room slam. Adam hadn?t really been her son- none of them were biologically hers, but Mama still took his absence hard, and she was none too pleased about today?s meeting with Jesus. </p>
<p>They were going to start deciding who would go next. </p>
<p>Cali had crept up to Adam?s tiny door before coming down to wait. His doorknob and hinges had faded over the last weeks before disappearing, leaving no way back inside. She?s wanted to check, just to be sure. The idea that he was stuck behind that door, silent and unable to call for help haunted Cali?s dreams. </p>
<p>Mitch had to be almost to Jesus? office by now; it seemed like hours had passed, though it could be hard to gage realtime when you were locked inside. Mitch could drive, but Cali?d never learned, so he bringing them to the appointment, though Jesus had wanted to talk specifically to her this time, that she should be ready and with no one else hanging over her, listening. </p>
<p>She chewed a nail, turning the problem over again as she waited for it to be her turn. It was pretty much all she?d done since their last meeting. Did Jesus want her advice? To ask how their system was getting along? Or did he want to tell Cali that he?d chosen her and she was the next to go? </p>
<p>Her heart pounded at the thought. It couldn?t be her. Everybody here needed her. She kept things orderly, made sure the kids didn?t fight, worried about the appointments. She and Mitch kept everybody calm and relatively on track. She was essential. It couldn?t be her, she prayed. Not me. </p>
<p>She sat in the relative stillness and waited, listening for Jesus to call her to come out and face her fate.
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